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Healthy Lifestyle

So I have accepted my diagnosis of Bipolar disorder. I don’t argue with it, I don’t deny it. But lately I have been researching what I can do, besides medication, that can help me feel better and stabilize my mood. I know the first thing I need to do is eliminate enriched breads. I have a gene mutation that makes it so my body does not process folic acid, in fact it actually hurts my body when I have folic acid. So I am purposefully removing any enriched grains and pasta that have folic acid in them. I am trying to eat more vegetables but that is not going well.

My psychiatrist has encouraged me to lose 15 pounds to help with lowering my cholesterol (Yes I’m 22 and have high cholesterol). So the removal of bread helps me cut out some carbs and hopefully lose some weight. I have been walking at least 3 miles every day and trying to get in some core workouts. I am also just adding in things that make me feel better about myself in general.

So here is a breakdown of my plan:

  1. Cut out 80% of my carbs and all enriched foods
  2. Walk or do a cardio workout every day
  3. Stop biting my nails
  4. Take care of my skin
  5. Clean my house!! I have realized that the clutter in my house really contributes to my anxiety
  6. Lastly, I have started “gardening” I have a couple of plants on my front porch to take care of and even bought a strawberry plant

This is my intentions to live a healthier lifestyle that contributes to the work my medication is doing. I am not considering going off of medication because I know right now I need it to be stable, but my husband and I have been talking about when we want to try for another baby. The reality is that none of my medications are safe for pregnancy. So my goal is to learn how to be as stable as possible with or without medication.

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I add in those quote from Carrie Fisher because I can relate to how she feels. I take medication three times a day as well and it is a constant reminder that I cannot function normally without medication. If I miss a dose, I feel the effects and to be completely honest, that makes me feel like shit.

So here is to living a healthy life, using medication, diet, attitude, or whatever. We can all strive to be as healthy as possible.

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Mental Health

Summer nights

Soo I haven’t posted in a while. My life has been kinda crazy and my moods have been all over the place. I also had an allergic reaction to some unknown thing so I broke out in hives. I went to my doctor and he prescribed me with Prednisone. That was not a good idea.
For those of you who don’t know, Prednisone’s side effects include mania. That means mania for normal people, imagine the affect on a crazy like me.
So anyway I was in one of my moods last night to do something stupid but my boyfriend had asked me not to drink, I decided to raid our medicine cabinet instead. I went over to my best friend’s house and attempted to have fun. It was not nearly as effective as I thought it would be.
I learned my lesson though because I don’t think I will ever abuse prescription drugs again.
I will try to blog more frequently if my moods will allow me to focus better.
Happy summer!

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Oops, forgot to take my meds

I’m feeling very annoyed today. I want to be annoyed with someone, but there is no one to be annoyed at, which annoys me. I’m actually just annoying myself I think. Due to me being forgetful I forgot to refill my bipolar medication so yesterday I took just my antidepressants. That made for a good day with lots of energy, but today I didn’t take any medication at all and I am actually regretting it.

My thoughts are going crazy, I am thinking about nothing and everything at the same time. I am not dealing with it well. I am choosing to self-medicate on coffee and skittles. Coffee and skittles are my coping skills. Instead of cutting, I drink coffee. No it does not work as well but you can’t blame me for trying.

I am now on my 8th espresso shot and am realizing that this was not a good idea. It isn’t calming down my thoughts at all. Duh. Ohh well, tomorrow I will try to take my medication. And please no judgement here.

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